Hello My Strong Busy Moms (and dads and busy people),
I haven’t posted in a long time, I am sorry for this. I am still on my health, weight loss, lifestyle journey. I was so excited to start this blog and have you come along for the journey with me. Then I hit a brick wall surrounded by a barbed wire fence. So I hid in my little corner and found myself in a dark place filled with frustration, sadness, loneliness and food!
I had been doing so well, I was following my routine, going to the gym, trying new things (yep Adult Ballet), eating properly. Then my right knee started to hurt a little, it would swell a little after each activity. Full disclosure, I have bad knees 6 knee surgeries with the little scars to prove it. So I continued my activities, iced my knees and rested when needed. Then I had a scary moment at the gym one morning working out with Ian, a pop and extreme pain. We cut our session short and I took my Advil and kept going.
Fast forward to 2 weeks later, we went camping and I had never felt such pain in a knee joint in my life. I laid on our air mattress crying, wondering how this could be happening again.
I have now been to the doctor’s office, visited a surgeon. I have extreme arthritis, the surgeon’s words were “You have the knee of a 70 year old”. I am told that if I was 10 years older, I would have the knee replaced. So we are starting the “Plan B” process now. I have no intention of slowing down, so I need to work on a plan to minimize the damage and pain as best I can.
So my journey is taking the road less traveled whether I wanted it to or not. The hard part about the modified journey is the mental game I have to play now. Loosing weight and focusing on health is tough no matter who you are. Adding a sidelining injury that will have no real resolution for at least 10 years is a whole new mindset I haven’t found yet.
So you find me at a low point, sad, frustrated and honestly struggling. This I have been told is the meat of my journey, the tough part. Waiting for surgery again, and hoping the recovery is quick.
I will attempt to take each day as it comes. I will have no choice but to tell Kawartha Dairy we are no longer driving the bitter bus together (that’s how I gained back 10lbs of my 26lbs weight loss – damn you Moose Tracks for being so good).
I learned about myself over the last month, when I am sad, I stop doing the things that make me feel invincible. I stopped my daily meditation, I stopped using my essential oils diffuser, I stopped exercising my mind with my current book The book of Greatness by Lewis Howe. I turned on the busy mom auto pilot and zombied my way through the day.
So, I am making a conscious effort to do the things that make me a superwomen again (or at least a superwomen in my mind).
Sorry for cutting you out of my journey. I will make sure it doesn’t happen again.
Thank you for looking in on the Strong Busy Mom who hopes to feel Strong again soon,
Until next time,
XOXO
Jen